Sakit + Sabar = Indah...

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Annyeonghaseyeo

    I did promise to post something special for the next post..So here it is!
Enjoy amd and don't feel burden!

Weird title right?!..
Nothing special actually..I just want to share something meaningful today.
Pernah tak you guys terfikir kalau satu hari nnti your parents sakit siapa agaknya yang nak jaga diorang.? Especially if they can't even manage diri diorang sendiri.. Means tak boleh bangun, mandi, pergi toilet sendiri?..
For me?..Pernah actually selalu especially kalau lepas tengok drama Melayu yang macam2 tu..Terasa bila tngk dengan parents part anak tak nak jaga mak ayah yg dah tua..
But I never imagine that it will happen to me because I know myself very well and I don't have any guarantee that I can feel patience with all the pressure..

But who know.. Sometime benda yang kita dok elak yang akan jadi..Allah tu Maha Besar, kita hanya merancang, dia yang menentukan..
I went to PLKN for 2 month, on the 3rd week my mom informed me that my father sick. Stroke. Half body. He cant mive at all..
As a child how do you imagine?
You live far from them..You want to go back but your family tak bagi sebab takut nnti lagi problem cause I yang paling rapat dengan Abah..

What I can do just cry and smile..The truth was hurt but you need to accept it.. I continue my life at there like the other usual day..
Then habis PLKN..

Balik Selangor, then dapat tahu kena pergi masuk belajar dekat DUNGUN!...Jauh bak hang..
Tapi redha...
Sakit nak tinggal abah yang sakit, mama, kakak, abang yg penat..Sakit tngk diorang tapi redha, terima, sabar..Pergi jugak sana...

Rindu nak tngk abah mcm dulu tapi nak buat mcm mana tak mampu nak lawan kuasa Dia..Abah continue sick amd getting worst from day to day..
Me?....Just crying and pray for him to get better...I too far from him..I want to take care of him but I cant...
So sabar je mampu tngk abah...Sakit jngn crita...
Dapat jaga abah dalam 2-3 minggu but I feel so sad because I cant patience with him...I cant control myself..Get mad at him, cry infront of him... Can't count..It hurt inside...
Now I feel really regret...I just hope I can go back to that time and treat him again... Nicely...

The last thing that I remember was..dia nak makan even mama ckp dah lama abah tak nak makan..But bila I balik and suap dia semangat makan...That time I feel so sad to see how hard for him just to swallow bubur...
Not even a week after that he meninggal...
Al - Fatihah....

What I want to say is jngn menyesal kaalu kena jaga parents yang sakit..sabarlah, anggap dia nak bagi kita pahala free..Jangan menyesal kemudian hari sebab dah tiada guna..
Keep strong and dont forget to ask for help for Allah...

That's all..bye
Much 😍